i lYk beinG mE!!

"I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean "

i simply love these lines , you know they stroked my head in the very first fluke..
amazing innit,,so i started writing and this was the first line banging my head, i lyk being me, truly me! despite i know am i total jerk at times, i keep dilapidating the situations but still..

i barely get this? how people manage so many faces, one at workplace, one at home, one with friends, one wd whom yu're around. Few days past, somebody suggested me that i should also give it a taste and ergo, i tried, i tried to walk nicely, talk a way much less then before, dress-up graciously with decent skinny jeans and a nice signature tee, rather then some cramped XL t-shirt, yeah worth mentioning, perfectly falling hair :) :)

After an hour, it was a total FIASCO... i just found i was someone else , geez!
the veneering of the get-up is still easier but an attempt to talk less ...huh'darn it. The time i remained silent,all i could do is keep my vigilance on the perception of the person next to me, and it made me queasy and nervous. All of a sudden i started realizing that i missed me so much, like the way i babble without giving a hoot to others is my way rather then peeping fatuously into someone's acephalous thoughts.

with me being me, i relished all the hostilities around, world seemed better. More confident and More focussed this time, i am on my way!! :)